I cant stand praying in fear that my non-Muslim parents will walk in on me, I want to pray to Allah in peace of mind, I want to freely read and recite the Quran, I want to visit a masjid for the first time, I want to be a Muslim freely,
maybe I need more trust in Allah? Maybe this fear is not valid? I pray and make dua all the time begging for peace of mind and for the strength to be given to me, I always make the 5 fardh prayers, but doing it secretly is so hard, it’s sometimes so hard to focus because I have to listen for footsteps.
Is it bad that I stop my prayer when I hear somebody coming?
Is it bad that I feel this way?
Do I not have enough trust in Allah for feeling this way?
Shortened up, being a revert is hard, and it’s even harder doing it secretly in a non Muslim household.
By - FormalPuzzleheaded13