Not sure about Beestation rules specifically, but the wiki specifies that rune metal golems are not necessarily aligned with the cult, just match their scheme. You're a golem first, everything else second.

Golem must obey his creator. If he has no orders he is still not an antag and acting like an antag will be considered self-antag. You'll just be a cult metal golem.

Yeah. Guessed as much. Wanted to be sure before doing anything supid

You are not allowed to self antag on Bee. So even if you find a way you'd probably be bonked for it.

Dont kill yourself. Become illuminated slime person, and do major change with integrated adamantine extract. I've done this before, many times.

how do i get runed metal?

Curator has a tuned metal bookshelf in their quarters that can be deconstructed.

OOOOO so it has an use! what else can be done with that rune metal?

Nothing unless you're a cultist and have the knowledge to use it as far as I am aware.

or a xenobiologist with stabilised metal and a dream