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raviolimuffins

Your bmi is underweight. Ya know how I know that? Because I immediately went to a BMI calculator because that’s what my brain does when I see numbers like that


glitterandgore

Same. Are numbers allowed on this sub? Seems dangerous.


Forsaken-Unit-8207

I’m so sorry! I added the spoiler tag.


anniekeepsontrying

So you‘re surprised that your body doesn’t want to lose any more weight and is ravenously hungry when you’re using a lot more energy than you are taking in and you’re already underweight?! I get that you’re mad about it but you surely can‘t be surprised that your metabolism has thrown in the towel to protect you.


Forsaken-Unit-8207

I know logically that this is what is going on. But it’s hard. The ED part of me tells me that giving into the extreme hunger is a sign of failure. The sick part of my brain tells me I am not good enough at having an ED because others are able to restrict for months and months and get to a much lower BMI and not binge/give in to extreme hunger. In my head, I just still feel like it’s not bad and I’m not too underweight.


anniekeepsontrying

Hey, I totally get it, I think we all do. The comparing to others who are „off worse“ or checking symptoms of lists and invalidating ourselves if not all of them apply to us. But what happens „in your head“ your body doesn’t really care about. It does it‘s thing and might begrudgingly take it for a while but then it fights back. With vengeance. I keep saying that we don‘t get to choose how damaged our bodies (especially the organs, metabolism and that good stuff) get by our actions. Plus ageing doesn‘t „help“ and past damages tally up.


Natasha_xox

I’m also 5’1.5 😅 it prob depends on what time of day your height is being checked. As you shrink later in the day - 99lb is the minimum bmi 18.5 which lets be honest most people are not! Also the amount you’re eating is no where near enough! That’s way too low, until recently I was maintaining a very low bmi on 1,350 calories which is nothing. This is not a competition, I’m now in recovery and upping those calories and my weight. What I’m saying is your body won’t let you drop weight because it’s scared you’re exercising and restricting which means your metabolism is lowering. The only way is to stop. You know that…you need to eat because your body is starving. You need more food especially if you’re exercising. I made this mistake and honestly the impact on my bones has been horrible. I can’t even walk and it’s been over a year since I broke them :( but lack of food will do that. I can’t tell you what to do but you know why this is happening


quimichpatlan

There will most likely never be a number low enough that will make you happy. That is something to keep in mind for the future.


Forsaken-Unit-8207

But I really don’t want to look scary. Like I have seen pictures of severe anorexia and I don’t want to look like that. But maybe they previously thought they didn’t want to look like that either, until they did.


Strawberrywitches

Spoiler tag your numbers


Forsaken-Unit-8207

I just did. I’m so sorry!


Strawberrywitches

You’re all good I mess up with it sometimes too as long as we fix the mistake and work on it moving forward it’s all good!😊


mountaingoat-006

if you are running, PLEASE eat enough. i used to be in your shoes. now i have an injury and i can't run anymore. it's been a year since i last ran.


Forsaken-Unit-8207

Thank you. I really am trying. Extreme hunger/reactive eating is still kicking my ass. I don’t know what number to eat for it to taper off. I still want to keep losing, but I want to be able to keep running. I am so sorry about your injury. I can’t even begin to imagine how you feel. 🖤