Does anyone here find themselves frustrated by their inability to express themselves in a precise/concise manner? All humans, right? But then realize that you must've given up at some point in the past and are now one step away from speaking only in sagely koans?
In the moment, I'm not frustrated: I'm a pinball raging against the machine or Austin Powers in a golf cart, a kid freaking out in the Chinese finger-trap (or some more complex fabrication that has F all to do with the actual subject).
I speak them so naturally that people frequently allow me time to explain myself afterward (or just recognize that I'm frustrated and their input isn't actually necessary).
I suppose because no one's with me on this level. I've either gotten better at tying them to the subject matter or the people in my life have adjusted themselves to me and my speech patterns.
I believe that I must be a fairly humorous person, amicable, easily liked (not sure why) due to the number of reciprocal smiles and laughs I receive when social. Pretty sure I lean into it so that my analogies are typically absurdist and highly comical, warranting laughs. But it does cause me frustration, no lie. "Just spit it out plainly!"
It's just weird and I thought, "wow, I've been reading about myself in other's posts and articles a lot recently, wonder if anyone else does this CONSTANTLY?"
And yeah, you guessed it: I'm self conscious about it. Sometimes they're pretty good though and I can revel in the chorus of laughter they produce and feel really ...accepted and loved. Aw.
By - SnooBeans7106